It's time to drop this pen
And stop this episode
I should walk away
Feeling free and proud
But somehow...

But somehow, it feels so irony
Why do I feel this way
When I was suppose to be happy
This feeling that slowly eating me up

Don't go, don't go
I silently whispered to the sky
Tried so hard to ignore
Tried so hard to look away

"Ah, there you are"
I said to my car key
"Let's go and move on"
I told myself ignorantly

Driving myself away
Away from everything
But I didn't realise that
The road I took was
So very much reminiscing

Everything suddenly became so alien to me
I tried avoiding myself from thinking too much
But my heart was on the verge of breaking
I guess this is how it feels to leave something so dear

As I was standing on the balcony
I tried to record everything with my heart
Telling myself that I should not worry
But part of me telling me not to dive too far

I should not let my heart break
I still have a long journey from here
But, is it alright...
Is it alright to rest for awhile?

To let go of everything once and for all
To just drench myself in the rain
And just letting myself to break
And recollecting everything

I promise I'll return
I promise I'll be stronger
And put on a new pair of shoes
To start drifting into the new abyss

Please...
I promise I'll be there

That time
When I opened my eyes
I thought my typical day
Has started

I woke up
Getting ready
Taking a lift
Arriving at class

Conversing with classmates
Listening to teachers
Solving tutorials
Taking notes as if it's a war

Somehow
I felt something was off
This overwhelming emotion
Kept strangling my tiny heart

The next day
I got ready
For special occasion
Unlike any other day

Dressed up
In pastel pink
Had a driver
Drove me there

Upon reaching the hall
Friends were waiting
With their fruit cocktail
Waving at me

This event
Full of aristocrats
Of a high status
Searching for valuable jewels

I was one of the candidate
For their connection
For their influence
For their business

Many of my friends
Were selected too
As we strive too high
Too fast

I went out
To get some air
As I was strolling along the pier
Something caught my eyes

One look
I thought it was a firework event
With all those uproar
And crowds

My interest and curiosity
Won over my reasoning
Only to find out
That my car was on fire

"It exploded!"
They said
"Someone just died!"
And it was my driver

My friend sent me home
I thought
Why is this happening to me
What just happened

Was this a coincidence
Another crime
Or someone was
Targetting me

The next day
I woke up as if
It was another normal day
Except of this heavy feelings

Assigned with a new driver
Whom sent me to class
Was an old man
Whom has no family

Sat quietly, I was
In a new car
While thinking
Will this man die because of me too

Didn't just dropped me there
He came along to have his lunch
I was relief that he didn't stay
In that possibly destroyed car

"Stay here"
I said, and he nod
"I mean it"
I said, and he nod smiling

Feeling insecured
I went down the path
Towards my class
When suddenly

A pair of hands
Pulled me away
Into a sechluded alley
And striking a huge knife

Towards me...

I opened my eyes
Gasping for air
Gazing into the ceiling
Wondering which one was a dream