Tik tok tik tok
I can't hear the ticking tok
Tik tok ticky tok
All I see is my delusion

I think I'm mad
I think I'm mad
Tik tok tik tok
I think I can't control myself anymore

Drag, drag
I heard someone dragging a chair
Drag, drag
Or was it just my imagination?

I stretched out my hands
Yet all I see is my delusion
Tik tok ticky tok
I guess I can't control it anymore

Clenching the teeth
Writhing in pain
As if someone is hooking the chest
With their hoe from behind
Forcing it out without mercy

Tik tok tik tok
Oh, that's the sound of the clock
Tik tok ticky tok
I thought I'm getting mad at least

Tok tik tocky tik
Is it just me
Or it's a normal thing
Tok tik ticky tok
I'll see tomorrow if I can survive

Please don't do this to me
Please let me be content
Why are you doing this to me
It's far from my capability

I am tearing apart
Please don't rip me apart
I can't handle this anymore
Please don't hurt me anymore

Don't take it away
Please don't steal it away
I can't live without it
Why are you doing this to me

Please return it back to me
Don't leave me like this
I can't hold on any longer
Just murder me instead

I want it back right now
Please don't destroy me
I can't live like this
This is too much for me

I used to be so strong
Now I can't even fight it
I used to be heartless
Now it's all I ever need

Why are you doing this to me
Please stop hurting me now
I want it back right now
Just don't take it away from me

Turning over
Laying down
Jumping around
Strolling outside

Non of these had given any answer

Eating and sleeping
Singing and crying
Talking and drawing
Sitting and dancing

Non of these had solved anything

How this ache so much
Giving delusion to the vision
No food satisfy the hunger
And fever infecting one body

Could there be a reason to this?
Is this a disease by itself?
Or a long run of demotivation?
But somehow this intense pain...

So different from any
So strong and burning
So painful yet warm
So unknown to the likes

Not knowing what to do
Not knowing what it is
Not knowing how to cure
Not knowing what's the cause

Painfully crawling
Suffering from this demise
Seeking for salvation
From this infinity abyss

Gust of wind struck the eyes
Enduring the pain without realising
Not even an effort to fight the unknown
Must have been the exhaustion it took

Wondering the reason to stay
What it takes to remember the song
Answering the demand of just
Will it be if we were to survive

Tomorrow will come and taken away
Shall one know where to reach
Drifting alone under such heat
Asking for strength of hope and light

It's time to drop this pen
And stop this episode
I should walk away
Feeling free and proud
But somehow...

But somehow, it feels so irony
Why do I feel this way
When I was suppose to be happy
This feeling that slowly eating me up

Don't go, don't go
I silently whispered to the sky
Tried so hard to ignore
Tried so hard to look away

"Ah, there you are"
I said to my car key
"Let's go and move on"
I told myself ignorantly

Driving myself away
Away from everything
But I didn't realise that
The road I took was
So very much reminiscing

Everything suddenly became so alien to me
I tried avoiding myself from thinking too much
But my heart was on the verge of breaking
I guess this is how it feels to leave something so dear

As I was standing on the balcony
I tried to record everything with my heart
Telling myself that I should not worry
But part of me telling me not to dive too far

I should not let my heart break
I still have a long journey from here
But, is it alright...
Is it alright to rest for awhile?

To let go of everything once and for all
To just drench myself in the rain
And just letting myself to break
And recollecting everything

I promise I'll return
I promise I'll be stronger
And put on a new pair of shoes
To start drifting into the new abyss

Please...
I promise I'll be there

That time
When I opened my eyes
I thought my typical day
Has started

I woke up
Getting ready
Taking a lift
Arriving at class

Conversing with classmates
Listening to teachers
Solving tutorials
Taking notes as if it's a war

Somehow
I felt something was off
This overwhelming emotion
Kept strangling my tiny heart

The next day
I got ready
For special occasion
Unlike any other day

Dressed up
In pastel pink
Had a driver
Drove me there

Upon reaching the hall
Friends were waiting
With their fruit cocktail
Waving at me

This event
Full of aristocrats
Of a high status
Searching for valuable jewels

I was one of the candidate
For their connection
For their influence
For their business

Many of my friends
Were selected too
As we strive too high
Too fast

I went out
To get some air
As I was strolling along the pier
Something caught my eyes

One look
I thought it was a firework event
With all those uproar
And crowds

My interest and curiosity
Won over my reasoning
Only to find out
That my car was on fire

"It exploded!"
They said
"Someone just died!"
And it was my driver

My friend sent me home
I thought
Why is this happening to me
What just happened

Was this a coincidence
Another crime
Or someone was
Targetting me

The next day
I woke up as if
It was another normal day
Except of this heavy feelings

Assigned with a new driver
Whom sent me to class
Was an old man
Whom has no family

Sat quietly, I was
In a new car
While thinking
Will this man die because of me too

Didn't just dropped me there
He came along to have his lunch
I was relief that he didn't stay
In that possibly destroyed car

"Stay here"
I said, and he nod
"I mean it"
I said, and he nod smiling

Feeling insecured
I went down the path
Towards my class
When suddenly

A pair of hands
Pulled me away
Into a sechluded alley
And striking a huge knife

Towards me...

I opened my eyes
Gasping for air
Gazing into the ceiling
Wondering which one was a dream

I am a supporter and will always be.

I will not rise for myself, however rise for others.
I had supported you through mountain rocks.
And created paths for you to reach the tip.

However, unfortunately for me to believe in dreams.
And that you had thrown me when I am not needed.
Stepped and stabbed me without me realising.
Of eating mud and spoils.

Only until I realise how foolish I was.
Crawling and struggling, I screamed and cried.
Until one day, lights bathed upon me.
Holding me tight and never let go.

Thus, I finally smiled and laughed from within my heart.
Unto believing that these are the people to hold dear.
And that is I had wasted my love onto the wrong person.
As told by the elders a length years ago.

Mark my word, your reign has ended.

I shall make sure people around me rise even higher than you.

And a marvellous reign shall belong to those people.

Until then, I shall watch you crumble by yourself.

Only until then, I shall believe that you had lost everything.

And that is only when I can accept the real you.
However, your ego might have swallowed you whole by then.
And your hand may not able to reach mine.

Therefore, all I could do is to watch your selfishness swept you away.